A New Turning Point

The World Around You.

Have you ever had that experience where, late at night, you’ve found time has stopped. The world has stopped spinning on its axis and this whole little allusion of what you worry about on a day to day basis falls beneath your feet. Have you ever felt that way? 

So many people stay up late, but what does it really do? What reasoning stands behind fighting sleep? 

That’s not the real reason i started this entry. Not even close.

I am frozen currently, there is nothing moving, nothing beyond the sounds of my own computer. Just perfect in every direction. I have lost how it feels to part of this existence, disconnected from those around me. And I know, once i look down at that digital clock on the lower right hand corner of my desktop time will speed up quickly grasping me back into the reality of my life the ever buzzing thoughts rushing to my head:

“I didn’t do my latin, I missed a day of school, did we have psych note? how much did i miss, I have no voice how will I go to taekwondo, I didn’t even shower today, what is wrong with me, did my dog eat a wrapper, I need to empty the trash.”

It never ends. The constant flow rushing towards you at all times fill with worry, and doubt, and the constant need for something better than this. This petty existence everyone feels is never enough. I say live in the moment with what you have on your plate because at least you have something. There is always something. 

Get lost in your own world just for 5 minutes, maybe ten. Who knows? Once you throw away time and start living for that feeling of awareness you’ll never know how much time you’ve spent away from the fog. You never know until it sucks you right back in.